Song lyrics and Sunsets.

you know when your driving, and you look and your 6 miles from the last street you remember.

i feel like thats been my entire summer.

last thing i remember is giving my ceramic mushroom to Paige,

but now im here.

like 3 weeks away from school


sounds nice that way.


aslo, ive been a little emotionally unstable this summer.

lately i feel like im just watching my life pass by me.

and not in an emo way.

its hard to explain.

like , its like if i were dead and i came back down to see how everyone was, this is what it would be like.


its good to know the same problems will just keep happening no matter how long we're apart.


good to see how easily you can push someone out.

i've always been really bad at it.
even worse when you live with them.


probably why i always forgive the person.
but...im almost cashed out.
i think.

or, ya know when you realize the person you look up to inst still that person.
but they're human like the rest of us.
except for all you penguins reading this.

i guess thats all.

for the deep part of the blog anyway.


ducess!

Adele and Adolesents

so me and allie's current favorite, would you say favorite allie?

"yeahh"

yes, so as i was saying, our current(sorry this is going to take all night allie hahah)favorite is adele,shes just grand, my favorite is hometown glory and Allies is cold shoulder, which is weird because a month ago or so, just guestimating, we both liked the other, weird huh.

heres her link if you'd like to listen to it, its great stuff.

www.myspace.com/adelelondon

pretty awesome.

SEcondly, with a big e apparently, me and allie went to mutual last night, which was a rousing game of lameness.

you like got random objects out of a bucket and ran to the other side.

im like you but a hot and spicy in that bucket and ill play along, but for real.

it was pointless, so i just sat out.

im all, just like gym class huh, and like no one laughed im all this really is too much like gym class.

then their all britanee, get out of the way, im like "oh sorry, let me swim back in the ocean"

hahah they like didn't know they were allowed to laugh.

im like.........so uhhhhhhhhh, this game is uhhh a great spiritual experience....

they were acting like there spiritual fate was in this game, "if i dont get that golf ball in that can, i wont make it to the celestual kingdom."

its funny because i kept objecting to the rules and everyone was all up tight and stuff, im like id like to see any of these boys take me in a scrapbooking contest, i can whip up a mean scrapbook page.

vacations,holidays, lay it on me.

haha anyway

so far me and al have done nothing today just kicked around, i made an awesome breakfast and nopw we're just chjillin out.

we're about to go tan thou, doesnt that sound great !

ok bye !

Waking up to the sun and Waking up to reality.

FOr real ?


The last 2 days, something unbelievable has happened.

a murder,
Micheal Jackson dead.
my sisters death anniversary.
its like death everywhere.

shoot...


woah no pun intended.

its the strangest thing in the world what you wake up not knowing what you will when you go to bed.


no one wakes up thinking they wont be going back to sleep that night.


weirdd.

and you cant live everyday like it was your last, because if you dont die.
your screwed.

ohh yeah i ditched school to go to las vegas, i was sposed to be dead by now ?

so i guess just live in a way that you'd be happy with your life if you died tomorrow.


on the bright side of things, the love of my live

mitchel davis

is single.

Far Future Plans and Near Future Actions

Me and Allie were driving and it just hit me.
Im all talk and no bite...or something...or is it like...all bark no bite.
yeah but whats the one
ohh wait i got it
all talk no action ?
i think.
hmmm
hear no evil?
hah
never mind you wouldn't get it.
hah!
back to what i was saying.
so im like
"allie, this is the summer i get my own show."
and shes all ok do it.
i know how.
"i checked....online."
thats a little movie quote for yall.
so whats stopping me is that it could kinda ruin my life.
well i dont care about mine but like my parents or family's.
like what if something happens on the show that embarrass them.
i guess we'll see.
or i could just go move to California and try and get famous.
but we all know how that goes.
maybe its different when you actually have talent.
its just that recently I've seen allot of people life's that are just ...probably not how they wanted them to turn out.
they arnt happy, they arnt making the money they want...that kinda thing.
and i dont want that.
I dont know whether i should just go for my dreams or be realistic.
shooot.
i just dont want to regret whatever decision i make.
becoming famous is sorta irreversable.
buts its crazy easy.
i could start a youtube or get my own show on mtv.
or go to casting calls in california.
or i could just stay here and go to college .


although.
i really think someone is trying to tell me something.
really.

anyways/i think this blog is more for me than you.
so sorry you had to see all of this.


its too bad that dreams are just for now.

i mean right ?

Growing up and Growing nervouse

I recently got a job at cinimark,like really recently.
i only applied a week ago today, or tomorrow.So it was fast.
I went to orientation yesterday and...im scared out of my mind.
I'm not going to remember anything, theirs all of thees closets and....its just nuts.
and like....theirs what to do in case of a bomb threat, or if a robber comes at you.....yeah.
i just don't want to look stupid.
by the way i work 6-close on Friday night as my first shift...
wow.
the busiest night of the week and i get concessions.
sweet.you can stop by and see a movie and see me.
its gonna be awesome.
but i'll get through it.

other than that nothing very exciting going on.
Besides being very tired.

Arco and life lessons

I should have known better.
but ive never had to do the handle. usually you just push a little button so arco is just gay.

so i go in and say 14$ on 4 and hes all ok.
so i go out and try to pump it- nothing.
allies mom was there so i was like asking her, she didnt know .
so i was like uhmm ill just go back in.
and so the guy was all "did you lift the handle"
of course i lifted the handle stupid.
"yes"
"just move to 7"
"okiedoke thanks,sorry."
so then i go to 7 .....nothing.
mother trucker.
the guy COMES OUT and clicks the little handle on the gas pump up, id been doing the handle on the nozzle.
wow.
ok "im embarrassed ,hah"
*walks away.*
you have a good day to sir.
so im pumpin its working all good and it stops.
im like.....that was quick i look up,
its sold me SIX DOLLORS
ok, lemme put it back in.
...................nope.
wow
so i was sick of feeling stupid so i just left.

arco , you owe me 8 bucks douches.

Fakes and relizations

what are you supposed to be when your torn between who they used to be, could still be and what they've turned into.

maybe this person was always this way.
maybe high school made them this way.
i dont know what i can do to make things better, i feel im making my best effort.
the more i try to let it go the more i hear.
Is being fake friends better than being enemy's ?


Im sick of being sick of it.

but what can you do ?


i just wanted you to know, i hear everything you say.