Waking up to the sun and Waking up to reality.

FOr real ?


The last 2 days, something unbelievable has happened.

a murder,
Micheal Jackson dead.
my sisters death anniversary.
its like death everywhere.

shoot...


woah no pun intended.

its the strangest thing in the world what you wake up not knowing what you will when you go to bed.


no one wakes up thinking they wont be going back to sleep that night.


weirdd.

and you cant live everyday like it was your last, because if you dont die.
your screwed.

ohh yeah i ditched school to go to las vegas, i was sposed to be dead by now ?

so i guess just live in a way that you'd be happy with your life if you died tomorrow.


on the bright side of things, the love of my live

mitchel davis

is single.

Far Future Plans and Near Future Actions

Me and Allie were driving and it just hit me.
Im all talk and no bite...or something...or is it like...all bark no bite.
yeah but whats the one
ohh wait i got it
all talk no action ?
i think.
hmmm
hear no evil?
hah
never mind you wouldn't get it.
hah!
back to what i was saying.
so im like
"allie, this is the summer i get my own show."
and shes all ok do it.
i know how.
"i checked....online."
thats a little movie quote for yall.
so whats stopping me is that it could kinda ruin my life.
well i dont care about mine but like my parents or family's.
like what if something happens on the show that embarrass them.
i guess we'll see.
or i could just go move to California and try and get famous.
but we all know how that goes.
maybe its different when you actually have talent.
its just that recently I've seen allot of people life's that are just ...probably not how they wanted them to turn out.
they arnt happy, they arnt making the money they want...that kinda thing.
and i dont want that.
I dont know whether i should just go for my dreams or be realistic.
shooot.
i just dont want to regret whatever decision i make.
becoming famous is sorta irreversable.
buts its crazy easy.
i could start a youtube or get my own show on mtv.
or go to casting calls in california.
or i could just stay here and go to college .


although.
i really think someone is trying to tell me something.
really.

anyways/i think this blog is more for me than you.
so sorry you had to see all of this.


its too bad that dreams are just for now.

i mean right ?

Growing up and Growing nervouse

I recently got a job at cinimark,like really recently.
i only applied a week ago today, or tomorrow.So it was fast.
I went to orientation yesterday and...im scared out of my mind.
I'm not going to remember anything, theirs all of thees closets and....its just nuts.
and like....theirs what to do in case of a bomb threat, or if a robber comes at you.....yeah.
i just don't want to look stupid.
by the way i work 6-close on Friday night as my first shift...
wow.
the busiest night of the week and i get concessions.
sweet.you can stop by and see a movie and see me.
its gonna be awesome.
but i'll get through it.

other than that nothing very exciting going on.
Besides being very tired.