Far Future Plans and Near Future Actions

Me and Allie were driving and it just hit me.
Im all talk and no bite...or something...or is it like...all bark no bite.
yeah but whats the one
ohh wait i got it
all talk no action ?
i think.
hmmm
hear no evil?
hah
never mind you wouldn't get it.
hah!
back to what i was saying.
so im like
"allie, this is the summer i get my own show."
and shes all ok do it.
i know how.
"i checked....online."
thats a little movie quote for yall.
so whats stopping me is that it could kinda ruin my life.
well i dont care about mine but like my parents or family's.
like what if something happens on the show that embarrass them.
i guess we'll see.
or i could just go move to California and try and get famous.
but we all know how that goes.
maybe its different when you actually have talent.
its just that recently I've seen allot of people life's that are just ...probably not how they wanted them to turn out.
they arnt happy, they arnt making the money they want...that kinda thing.
and i dont want that.
I dont know whether i should just go for my dreams or be realistic.
shooot.
i just dont want to regret whatever decision i make.
becoming famous is sorta irreversable.
buts its crazy easy.
i could start a youtube or get my own show on mtv.
or go to casting calls in california.
or i could just stay here and go to college .


although.
i really think someone is trying to tell me something.
really.

anyways/i think this blog is more for me than you.
so sorry you had to see all of this.


its too bad that dreams are just for now.

i mean right ?