Waking up to the sun and Waking up to reality.

FOr real ?


The last 2 days, something unbelievable has happened.

a murder,
Micheal Jackson dead.
my sisters death anniversary.
its like death everywhere.

shoot...


woah no pun intended.

its the strangest thing in the world what you wake up not knowing what you will when you go to bed.


no one wakes up thinking they wont be going back to sleep that night.


weirdd.

and you cant live everyday like it was your last, because if you dont die.
your screwed.

ohh yeah i ditched school to go to las vegas, i was sposed to be dead by now ?

so i guess just live in a way that you'd be happy with your life if you died tomorrow.


on the bright side of things, the love of my live

mitchel davis

is single.

Far Future Plans and Near Future Actions

Me and Allie were driving and it just hit me.
Im all talk and no bite...or something...or is it like...all bark no bite.
yeah but whats the one
ohh wait i got it
all talk no action ?
i think.
hmmm
hear no evil?
hah
never mind you wouldn't get it.
hah!
back to what i was saying.
so im like
"allie, this is the summer i get my own show."
and shes all ok do it.
i know how.
"i checked....online."
thats a little movie quote for yall.
so whats stopping me is that it could kinda ruin my life.
well i dont care about mine but like my parents or family's.
like what if something happens on the show that embarrass them.
i guess we'll see.
or i could just go move to California and try and get famous.
but we all know how that goes.
maybe its different when you actually have talent.
its just that recently I've seen allot of people life's that are just ...probably not how they wanted them to turn out.
they arnt happy, they arnt making the money they want...that kinda thing.
and i dont want that.
I dont know whether i should just go for my dreams or be realistic.
shooot.
i just dont want to regret whatever decision i make.
becoming famous is sorta irreversable.
buts its crazy easy.
i could start a youtube or get my own show on mtv.
or go to casting calls in california.
or i could just stay here and go to college .


although.
i really think someone is trying to tell me something.
really.

anyways/i think this blog is more for me than you.
so sorry you had to see all of this.


its too bad that dreams are just for now.

i mean right ?

Growing up and Growing nervouse

I recently got a job at cinimark,like really recently.
i only applied a week ago today, or tomorrow.So it was fast.
I went to orientation yesterday and...im scared out of my mind.
I'm not going to remember anything, theirs all of thees closets and....its just nuts.
and like....theirs what to do in case of a bomb threat, or if a robber comes at you.....yeah.
i just don't want to look stupid.
by the way i work 6-close on Friday night as my first shift...
wow.
the busiest night of the week and i get concessions.
sweet.you can stop by and see a movie and see me.
its gonna be awesome.
but i'll get through it.

other than that nothing very exciting going on.
Besides being very tired.

Arco and life lessons

I should have known better.
but ive never had to do the handle. usually you just push a little button so arco is just gay.

so i go in and say 14$ on 4 and hes all ok.
so i go out and try to pump it- nothing.
allies mom was there so i was like asking her, she didnt know .
so i was like uhmm ill just go back in.
and so the guy was all "did you lift the handle"
of course i lifted the handle stupid.
"yes"
"just move to 7"
"okiedoke thanks,sorry."
so then i go to 7 .....nothing.
mother trucker.
the guy COMES OUT and clicks the little handle on the gas pump up, id been doing the handle on the nozzle.
wow.
ok "im embarrassed ,hah"
*walks away.*
you have a good day to sir.
so im pumpin its working all good and it stops.
im like.....that was quick i look up,
its sold me SIX DOLLORS
ok, lemme put it back in.
...................nope.
wow
so i was sick of feeling stupid so i just left.

arco , you owe me 8 bucks douches.

Fakes and relizations

what are you supposed to be when your torn between who they used to be, could still be and what they've turned into.

maybe this person was always this way.
maybe high school made them this way.
i dont know what i can do to make things better, i feel im making my best effort.
the more i try to let it go the more i hear.
Is being fake friends better than being enemy's ?


Im sick of being sick of it.

but what can you do ?


i just wanted you to know, i hear everything you say.

Dreams and Daytime

So last night, more like 10 minuets ago, i had the weirdest dream.
it consisted of drowning,suffocating,a really cute boyfriend I've never seen,coach wheeler ?to clear the confusion ,coach was not the boyfriend,and me seducing Cody hunt to find out how to get out of this vortex ?

so to say the least , it was weird.

just wrote in to say that.

Today, i woke up and went to my sister in laws, sisters house and we swam
supper fun
but im not used to chlorine pools and my eyes are doing that fuzzy thing !!!

ugh annoying.
anyhow.
then me and rachel turned in more applications for jobs,and also cinimark called to set up an interview,.
wooop wooop.

thats all for now.

good night.

wait , what.
i meant bye
off to eat tuna cassoral
maybe hang out woth brendan or jen or brendan and jen
in addition to rachel who im already with.
say hi rachel

"hi everyone"

that was rachel.

goodbye.

Tuesday Nights and Drive-ins

Today, i didn't wake up until 1.
so that was cool, thanks to my blogging until 4.
anyways, i woke up went to a dermatologist apt. and he told me that soda and milk are what causes most acne.
Im gonna be a pizza face my whole life.
And he told me Im cashing out my pancreas.
I'll just get a loan.
he's really awesome though, i like him.

then i went job hunting with Rachel and Allie
Ive applied at :
cinimark
Joanns
clairs
tillys
AS YOU WISH
paradise bakery
buckle
target
jc penny
mo jo yo go
anchor blue

so we'll see if anything comes of that.

job hunt, successful.
id say i caught me a buck.
HAH
no pun intended.

i meant like...when you hunt and kill a deer, like a buck..

but then its mon.....ok whatever.

then i went swimming and played some baby submarine (see deffinitions.)

then i went to sonic, yum.
but my pancreas feels a little lighter....
then i went to get gas in the truck hahaah

i was FAREAK dancing and Allie taps me and tells me these 2 guys are staring at me.
he was laughing so hard he was keeled over.
so i looked at him and nodded.
it was the best.


new skill i can officialy type wiothout looking at the keys !!!

(that portion done while looking SOLELY at the screen.


but on the down side charlie but Rachel and now we're killing her.
but i guess my family is notorious for that.
shoot we might as well have our own parking space at the euthanizer

Reminder: get name plate for parking space in vets parking lot.

I wrapped up my day with some good youtube time.
watching some verry cool stuff.

man plays trombone on agt

nuttin but strings

quest crew.

good stuff.
good night.